My therapist in her ever so wise way mentioned I was adding to my own torment with this useless anxiety. Being my own worst enemy, AGAIN. (Turns out I had one heart left... perfect! one for me!)
I have had a week to calm down now and get back to more of a normal routine. Back to my volunteer gig 3 days a week and back in the saddle of my bicycle as often as possible.
Of course I am thinking of ways I can do it better next year. Often while I am out riding with the music singing in my ears I can see in my imagination 'heartwork' I want to attempt. The winged heart did not have a lot of fans this year so maybe next year I can come up with a better design.
3 dimensional hearts have been re-occurring often ...especially a tortured heart splitting open or with a crack in the center.....
The more anatomically correct Mexican heart with fire has been 'swimming about in the back of my
So we will see what comes next....
On a final note I want to thank everyone who either bought a heart from me or supported me in my first (post traumatic brain injury) show. I feel very blessed that the Eugene Weekly used one of my pieces for their cover and I even wrote in to say "hey, that would be one way to make Eugene more artzy every week.. put a local person's art on the cover".
It is sure to be a more heart-centered year....even if those hearts are primarily in my sketch book or the heart table.